Keep Trying: “I don’t get tired”

I am going to let you in on a secret.

 

It’s a good one. I promise.

 

The secret?

 

I do not have everything together. I am not even close to being as polished, as slick, as seasoned, as respected, as well-positioned, as helpful as I want to be. I’m not even thisclose.

 

All is not lost, though.

 

The good news is that I keep trying. Each day I try a little harder to get closer to where I think I need to be. I keep trying, I keep pushing because that is what I do. It is a big part of who I am.

 

I am a persistent, aggressive try-er.

 

I am an expert a trying things. I am trying to become a dedicated yoga practitioner. I am trying to launch my first podcast soon. And let me tell you, podcasting for me is a huge case of lets-try-this-and-see-how-it-goes.

 

Although I am a persistent, aggressive try-er. My efforts are riddled with worry. My trying is almost always full of unnecessary, illogical worry along the way. I don’t always outwardly or verbally express my worry. But most of the time when I’m striving to become better – a better communicator, a better service provider, a better public speaker, a better entrepreneur, a better sister, friend, daughter, aunt, cousin or when I’m trying something new – I am internally filled with a lot of anxiety and angst.

 

For example, each time I prepare to speak to a large crowd, my stomach is turning flips. I start sweating; I usually end up pacing the floor. I usually have to pray my way to a sense of calm. After I go through this habitual stage of worry followed by praying and then calm, I usually do really well when I speak. Still, each time I want to say the right things, do the right things, be received well and receive the audience well. And, most importantly, I want to do better than I did the last time.

 

Oh, the worrying I put myself through is maddening.

 

Logically, I know it makes no sense for me to worry. Worrying has never improved a situation, and it likely never will. If anything, the worrying only makes things worse.

 

Spiritually, I know worrying negates my faith. My worrying … or, my FEAR (because you know that’s what worry really is – fear) only exists to make me sick. It does not help me succeed, which is absolutely contrary to what my faith tells me about the divine anointing that has been put on my life.

 

Most of all, I know that worry is even more foolish when I know I am walking and living on purpose IN my purpose.

 

When you live, work and serve in a way that is aligned to the unique, specific reason you were put on the earth, you do not have to worry and you do not have to chase success. Why? Success will find you.

 

1374927_873000692721329_3488951585832124987_nOne of my favorite clients, Sidney Outlaw, gave me a powerful reminder of this recently, and he wasn’t even trying.

 

Sidney is a star. He’s a dedicated opera singer who was recently nominated for a GRAMMY Award. I admire his commitment to his craft. I am in awe of his confidence and his dedication to everything he does.

 

We had a conversation this week about him singing several rigorous songs for a small, private audience. One of the audience members asked if he was tired from singing, and this is what he told me he said:

 

I don’t get tired. I don’t get tired. I don’t get tired because I know that it is in God’s will for me to sing. I don’t ever have a worry when I sing because I know I am living and breathing in my purpose. I might trip and fall on the stairs on the way up to the stage. I might have trouble walking on the stage. But when I sing, I don’t have a worry and I don’t get tired because it is what I was born to do.

 

Wow.

 

Sometimes the universe sends you a message that’s just for you, just when you need it.

 

This talk with Sidney was one of those times for me.

 

How about you? Are you are worrier? How do you cope?

2 Comments
  • Crystal
    Posted at 13:36h, 30 April Reply

    Thank you so much for sharing this. Sometimes when you are so good at what you do, onlookers never realize your struggle within. Sharing this motivates people like me who are seeking growth professionally, personally and spiritually. It helps me to understand that my own worries are normal and I just have to push through. I am currently creating a list of inspirational quotes that I will speak into a recorder and listen to during my morning workouts. I have included a line from this blog in my collection. It’s the line about success right before the Sidney Outlaw mention. Thank you, again!

    • Ashley
      Posted at 16:48h, 01 May Reply

      You are very right. I am so glad you were able to get something from this.

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